studio

    Here I am, just a few weeks from this, plugging away-trying to make something from nothing.
    As I prepare for this show, I try not to actually  THINK about it. I feel so inadequate at times-like I am going to show up and sit in a corner and marvel at the talents of all the other women and wonder how I ended up in this place. I am not fishing for compliments here, just admitting the overwhelming feelings of self doubt that arise from time to time.  I am really excited about the progress I made today. That is the most important thing for me to remember. I hope to share photos with you all soon.
    I've been thinking about work a lot lately. About money, careers, art, happiness, a big "meaning" of everything I guess. I love to be creative, I love making things, looking at photos, drawing, watching and hearing about people's life stories, running, laughing-I feel as though there is so much that I love to do. To me, the world-our country I guess, just seems so backwards about the way we value and look at "work". I really hope that I can figure out a way to live my life, not be completely poor, and be able to spend time doing what I love. I guess this is what we all want-it has just been tearing me up inside lately.......
     Sidenote:
      a zine swap will be organized after November 4-so start thinking about that if you are interested.

    Here is my super messy "studio"-
Oh my god-the guy upstairs in playing and singing "if you think I'm sexy" on his keyboards-ha ha!

Comments

[Hildy]

i love that photo!
so school girly & studious!
i've spent an enormous amount of time feeling inadequate around others talents and it's not helpful. you are so talented and your work stands out .yay for today's progress and i can't wait to see your goods.
living the creative life shouldn't be as hard as it is- there's something wrong with the world when folks hate what they do to make a "living".
i know you will be able to figure it out!

[lisa]

i am so glad you will be there! i will be visiting (not selling) and we can meet!!
love,
lisa

[Alicia P.]

Sweetheart. Your honesty touches me enormously. I wonder about all the same things almost all the time.

You are a talented, gentle, beautiful person, and everything you make is perfectly infused with your kind spirit and unique perspective, no matter what it is. The most important part of any of it is that you are enjoying yourself while you're doing it. Sometimes I forget that, especially as it gets closer to the holidays.

Anyway, I don't really know what I'm trying to say, just that I hear you. xoxox

[maimai]

Well, do you think he's sexy? Totally just kidding.
Anyway, I just wanted to say, you're so beautiful. I'm being honest when I say I'm sure other women will be marveling at your talent just as you will be theirs. I know you'll do a wonderful job.

[Alicia A.]

Very honest- I love it. We ALL feel this way sometimes. OK, lots of times. (about both topics)

[shari]

hi abby,
i've been thinking a lot about career/work too, as you know.;) a messy studio=getting things done! can't wait to see your beautiful creations for studio craft. i'm all in for the zine swap! xox shari

[Karen]

Hi Abby,

I think many creative people feel like you do (inadequate) especially when you've been working so hard, you haven't had the chance to really look back and really "see" what you've done. I know many of my designer friends freak out before any type of show they are attending. Your stuff has always been awesome so even though you weren't fishing for compliments...:)

Ah, and then the everlasting struggle of finding balance of work and life... Let me know if you have any insight as that is always my eternal question also.

xokaren

[pdxpink]

Hi Abby--it was cool to see you at your new job the other day! Good luck in the "life planning."

[kerstin]

i hear ya, as you know, on the job/life front! have you started the new job yet? i'm still looking....
have fun creating for the show. i am sure you'll all be fabulous!

[bugheart]

oh i am
interested
in the zine swap...
as for money
and careers-
i have to admit
that i decided
on a career
in science
partially
because
all my siblings
are artists
and spend
most of their time
waiting tables
and
bartending...
i wanted
to do
what i love
everyday...
but now i realize
it was more
because i did
not believe in
myself...
my siblings
find a way
and
i believe
all artists
can with
dedication...
wishing you
luck
on your
career path...